Sad Mac

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The rainbow wheel spins as thoughts back up in my brain.

Freeze.  Pause.  Jaw clenches.

Tapping keys with a purpose (of busting through the board).

Words get short.  Frustrations flare.

No love is lost when the faithful friend is dying.

Sure we’ve shared secrets and smiles and songs, but I long

For a MacBook Pro.


Nothing is more frustrating than a failing laptop, is there?
I'm linking with G-Man with my 55 this morning

491.  Yeah, I'm getting a pro
492.  Leaving anxiety behind
493.  Clearing stuff and feeling 10 lbs lighter
494.  Getting ready for company (yay entertaining)
495.  Farmers market
496.  Going out to a movie and dinner with a friend
497.  Waking up and realizing it was a nightmare
498.  Getting my confidence back
499.  Friday!  (not as exciting as it used to be)
500.  1st Friday!  (I adore the celebrating)

Hiding from truth

I keep myself safe in the world of my own design
Erasing people who disagree
Keeping me the way I want to see and be
I become a person who is desirable
Only by me
Not she
 I won’t give truth entrée
I’ll run away, hide behind a tree
Beneath a blanket I call safety

I'm linking with G-Man with my 55 this morning

I like to face the truth, no matter how ugly, in my life.  Some people don't.  They fascinate me.

461.  Friday, but it seems the same as Thursday and Saturday when one doesn't have a job

462.  Lattes on a weekday

463.  Sleeping late

464.  Sleeping well

465.  Encouragement

466.  The offer of new employment

 

How to throw your happiness away with both hands

Focusing on everyone’s story except your own

Waiting for the perfect moment

Working for nothing more than a paycheck

Harboring feelings of hate

Holding tight to worries and fears

Dwelling on difficulties

Seeking fleeting contentment

Trying to make a big difference immediately

Holding on to someone who hurts you

Magnifying the importance of physical beauty


I'm taking a moment to focus on the stumbling blocks to my happiness.  I thought they may be interesting to you, too.  I found them here.
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421.  Yay, yay FRIDAY
422.  A co-worker said I looked happier lately.  She thought it might be because I have a new boss.  Maybe?
423.  One day closer to having my husband home
424.  I blogged for 5 days in a row
425.  One day closer to having an unpleasant co-worker leave (who knows, maybe that's how they will think of me one day.  :P)

Shuffle up and deal

Circle the table with

Shades

Hoodie

Smiley

The Smiling Guy

I’m the Pony Tail Girl

My strategy is to flirt, attack, then go in for the kill

Shades’ a chaser, that flush never comes

Smiley can’t pass a flop, he buys in every hand

I’m silent but deadly, 'till I go all in

I win!

Lately my employment situation has been dicey.  I've got to figure out a way to earn.  Maybe I'll find a new profession in gambling?  Keep an eye out for me on Poker After Dark. 

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361.  Mental health days

362.  Lady Luck (it's a real thing)

363.  Smiles
364.  Winks
365.  Laughter
366.  Potato chips
367.  Reader that comment on my blog
368.  Butterflies (but not that one on your shoulder)
369.  June bugs on my neighbor's crepe myrtle, not mine
370.  Friends that give GOOD advice

A dangerous blog

"Our blog is currently invite only. If you would like to read the blog, you may message us your email address.  We will allow readership on a case-by-case basis. Once we leave our current location, the blog will be made public, but right now, for the safety of our family, it is a private blog." 

I wonder what they are writing that puts them in such danger?
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346.  Friday
347.  The weekend
348.  Not working
349.  Laughter
350.  Coffee in bed on Saturday mornings

International Woman's Day

Love us

Respect us

Look us in the eye, not 12 inches lower

Treat us as well as you would like to be treated

Appreciate our abilities

Pay us an equal wage

Allow us the same educational opportunities

Use your manners around us

Admire our beauty, but don’t objectify us

Honor us as human beings

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215.  Having a weekend getaway with my husband

216.  Liking myself just a little bit more today

217.  Working an indoor job

218.  Indoor plumbing

219.  Being able to shower everyday

Last night I dreamed I was in the Zombie Apocalypse.  It was pretty uncomfortable.

Retirement (they say you just know when it's time to go)

Should you stay or should you go?
Do you leave them wanting more?
Or wait ‘til they want you to go?
Pull your finger out of a bucket filled with water.
That’s the void you leave behind.
Soon your name won’t even be a memory.
Think on that while you decide…
What’s best for you.

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Pondering what to do.  Fight for a raise or retire...  What to do?

168.  My conscience
169.  Lessons in civility taught to me when I was young
170.  The people in my life that can tell me when I'm wrong
171.  The people in my life that encourage me
172.  The people in my life that will just listen
173.  The people in my life that give good advice 

ABC's of oxymorons

English, it’s so complicated.

act naturally

boxing ring

certain risk

definite maybe

educational TV

freezer burn

graduate student

head butt

inside out

junk food

kosher ham

liquid smoke

more unique

new tradition

one size fits all

plastic silverware

questionable answer

relative truth

sinfully good

toll free

unknown identity

virtual reality

weekday

young adult

zero deficit

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142.  xerox machines
143.  scanners
144.  pdf's
145.  photoshop
146.  spell-check
147.  double-sided printing
148.  ocr's
149.  Fridays

I need a clever comeback

“I’m rubber, you’re glue

Everything you say sticks right back to you”

“I know you are, but what am I?”

Let’s leave the clever retorts to the master, Serverus Snape.

“Oh, very good....Yes, it is easy to see that nearly six years of magical education have not been wasted on you, Potter. 'Ghosts are transparent.'”


Doncha wish you had J.K.Rowling to write your sarcasm for you.  I'm often more of a PeeWee Herman, myself.  :)

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90.  Working with a goal in mind
91.  Sunny day and blue sky
92.  The blizzard that never materialized
93.  Husband returning from AC tonight (no, I didn't get to go with him)
94.  Venison burgers for dinner tonight
95.  Laughter, laughter and more laughter (some people are so funny)
96.  Biblical scenes depicted in stained glass
97.  People who love instead of hate
98.  Having a conversation with someone who is really listening to you
99.  Sewing again  (I hadn't realized how much I missed it)

Whining is not a good way to begin an email

“I really hate asking anyone for help on anything around here, especially now that Luke's gone.  He was one person I could always ask for help, who didn't mind stopping to help.  Asking for help just seems to result in more grief, or so it seems to me.  But...

But this came to me.

Hilarious!

This is the first paragraph in an email from the same co-worker I wrote about in Maybe I'm a Disney Princess.  Which Disney Princess had a whiny stepbrother?  Boo Hoo.

 

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75.  Friday (that's all I've got, it's been a busy day)

A lesson from Shakespeare

Lord Polonius from Wikipedia

“Neither a borrower nor a lender be”
 So says Lord Polonius in Shakespeare’s Hamlet
He knew the consequences of expectations
“For loan oft loses both itself and friend,”
True this. A loaned item lost will cause strain on a friendship.
“And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry.”
Resulting in poor management of one’s own resources.


This may be something our Congress, President and those 47% of Americans not paying income tax can study.
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30.  Only a 3-day work week, but I'm glad it's Friday
31.  First cost of living raise in 6 years.  2%, but better than a stick in the eye
32.  An extra 1.7% deducted from my paycheck for Social Security withholding.  I guess I must be rich, 'cause my President said he was only raising the taxes of the rich
33.  Taking down my Christmas decorations this weekend
34.  Having lunch with a girlfriend
35.  Getting the hang of google apps
36.  Goat chops for dinner tonight (I'll tell you how they were next week)
37.  Cold days with bright sunshine
38.  Boiled turnips
39.  Friday (I'll say it again!)

The fall of the Wall

The Wall, erected in the dead of night, divided Berlin for 28 years.  An announcement to the East German people declared travel through the border to the West open this day in 1989.

People rushed to see if it was true.  The border guards, with no instructions as to what to do, let them through.


Commemorating the fall of the Berlin Wall, November 9th, 1989.
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676.  A surprise bushel of turnips
677.  Calm in the face of a trustee meeting
678.  Still seeking peace with a nation I no longer understand
679.  Listening to my husband speak about our son with a touch of pride in his voice
680.  Accepting the gratitude of others
681.  Green holly leaves and red holly berries beginning to show up all over the place
682.  Looking forward to my small group bible study to ponder the results of the election
683.  Crisp days and cold nights
684.  Continuing to socialize myself with cheerful people
685.  Thinking about roasting as many turnips as I could ever eat

Setting a goal

Boss:  Happygirl you need to set a goal for yourself this year.

Me:  Ok, I will.

Boss:  So, what is your goal?

Me:  I’d like to take a creative writing class.

Boss:  Oh?  How would that apply to your job?

Me:  I think it will make next year’s annual budget report a real page turner.

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625.  Juice making with my son this morning
626.  Oyster Festival (nothing better than a belly full of beer and oysters)
627.  Leaves tuning colors and starting to fall
628.  Apartment hunting (aka as dreaming of a place on the beach)
629.  Waking myself to reality and being satisfied with what I have

Happy tunes

Letting a smile be your umbrella is easier to do when it’s
raining pennies from heaven.
Smilin’ through the pain will
keep the devil away.
Just like dwelling on your troubles will
bring you down.
I want to bring you sunshine.
I want to share the joy.
I won’t be your Debbie Downer no more.

I DARE you to watch this and not laugh.  I double dog dare you.

I'm linking with G-man for a Friday Flash 55 with a musical theme.  I've been a little bit of a downer lately and I'm praying the weekend will help me flip this frown upside down.  Enjoy the music.

614.  Laughter

615.  Music

616.  Comedy

617.  Theater

618.  Anything that diverts my attention from my troubles

Spirited child

Remember that trophy you got for soccer, mommy?
You think you can get me to play, no way.
I won’t get in the car or even try.
I’ll cry.
You can’t make me go to bed or eat my dinner.
You want me to get my trophy?
Here’s what it’ll say.
The World’s Greatest Brat!


Had a convo with a grandma that told me she was babysitting her grandchildren and they told her to f**k off when she said it was bedtime.  They are 7 and 6.  Aren't they darling?
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601.  Today, I'm glad I'm not a grandma yet
602.  Only 39 days until the election
603.  Can I say Friday!  (I know I've said this before)
604.  A husband that just GETS me

Kwitcherbellyakin

 

I’ve heard tell the eyes are the windows to the soul.  If so, yours are cracked panes, leaking crocodile tears.  A saline soul slips down your cheeks.  Where did you learn to use this whimpering weapon?  This girlish game won’t play in a man’s world. 

Wash your face, contain yourself, heads up.

Be a woman!

After watching the DNC and watching the tears flow.  I'm wondering if this nation of "feelers" needs to suck it up a bit.
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572.  County fair
573.  Cows
574.  Corn dogs
575.  Cotton candy
576.  Chickens

This is how my tenant rolls

 

First of the month, nothing.  Days pass.  Nothing.  The 15^th, bell rings, it’s her.  She’s got on her best smile and rattiest shirt.  A granddaughter sits on her hip, check in hand.  Rent's short, again. 
Can I give her a break?

My mortgage was due on the 5^th.

That baby better work harder next month.

I'm prepping for the DNC and getting my tissues out to cry me a river for the entitled.

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547.  A job
548.  A home
549.  A family
550.  A work ethic 

Why I choose life

I’m not garbage.  Nothing more than a reminder of trauma.
I AM ME!
Don’t define me by him.
I'm me.
I’m a woman, daughter, wife, and mother.
I have a family. I love my children and my God.
Time could heal you, but your decision will be permanent for me.
I was conceived in rape.  


(this is not a personal story, but it could have been)

Check out Rebecca Kiessling's page and I'm linking with G-man for a Friday Flash 55

530.  Uplifting music in the car on the way to work
531.  Precious stories about life
532.  Having my heart broken by my son (it keeps me humble)
533.  Friday

Short sale in a (55) nut shell

Short sales are for homeowners on the brink of foreclosure. 

You won’t make money from a sale.  Profits will pay off your debt. 

Buyers may come your way, but the bank has the final say. 

Uncle Sam will get his cut on any debt forgiven.  You'll pay.

Your credit is still shot. 

Greed ain’t good.

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508.  Rain
509.  Funny movies
510.  Rhythmic gymnastics
511.  Synchronized swimming
512.  People paying back what they borrowed

Defending the faith

Chick-Fil-A, Love Wins, Hermoine in 50 Shades of Grey
Hey, how's a believer to answer back?
Wring our hands?
Spout vitriol on the blog?
Is it enough to believe LOVE will be enough?
Is it fire we need to fight this firestorm?
Or squarely shut the door on all debate and pray it goes away?

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485.  The deepest crimson crepe myrtle I have ever seen
486.  A blue bird sitting on the basketball backstop in my driveway
487.  Sunny yellow gold finches flying around my bird-feeder
488.  Bright white begonias blooming outside my window
489.  Purple salvia standing tall next to the begonias