Let me begin by saying, everybody has a bad day sometimes. Ok, yesterday I wasn't feeling great about myself. It happens. It happens to EVERYBODY, right? At least, that is what I'm counting on. All people feel "less than" at some point. Nobody has it all together. And yesterday I spilled it out on my blog. Nobody wants to read about "poor pitiful me." I read the comments and thought a lot of things over and sifted through the advice and came up with my own decision. And, here it is. I'm going to class on Wednesday and I'm going to work through the introspective portion of the program. I may or may not share my Command Statement with the group. We will see how the evening goes. But, I know what it is. I've thought it over and I know it. And no way, no how am I going to put it on the internet for all to read and copy and email to my mother and keep me from ever becoming President of the United States. (I just had to share that because sometimes I think people forget when you put something on the internet it is there forever and can come back to haunt you at any time. So, those naughty pics you post on fb... will show up when you are running for president. just sayin') I know my Command Statement and my lie. Since I know these things I can see them for what they are and tell myself the truth. And, my truth is "I do care about myself." I care about myself VERY MUCH. Good.
The second thing I got from the blog was encouragement to try doing yoga in my own home. There are many internet sites with yoga classes on them. I can do some at home and, if I feel like it, I can always take another class at the studio. It's completely up to me. Also, I can meditate at home. This is something I really thought I couldn't do, but I can. I don't need a class to do this.
Finally, if I want to go to the Celebration I can go. I paid my money. I attended the classes. I went to some yoga classes. I PARTICIPATED. It is up to me. I don't have to feel ashamed in ANY way. So, that's where I am on the 40 days of yoga. I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself.
Thank you to all who commented on yesterday's post. It is constantly amazing that people will take time out of their busy days to read my blog and even more amazing, to me, they will take EXTRA time to comment. You guys don't even know me. It's such a good thing for me to see my thoughts outside my head on the computer screen. I see them and think, Huh? What are you thinking? Why are you being so tough on yourself? Or, why are you letting yourself off the hook? Shape up. Work harder. Get over it. Move on. See, these are the things I say to myself after I hit the Publish Post button. I really try not to think about you readers out there, too much. I don't want to edit myself into someone I'm not because I don't want to embarrass myself in front of people I don't really know and will never meet. (Love ya, but really, we don't know each other.) Anyway, there it is. Some days I'm a ROCK STAR and some days I'm NOT. Some days I check EVERYTHING off my to-do list and some days, not so much. Either way. I'm OK. And, I'm doing the best I can.
For your viewing pleasure, I've included Rachel Dratch from SNL doing her thing.
The second thing I got from the blog was encouragement to try doing yoga in my own home. There are many internet sites with yoga classes on them. I can do some at home and, if I feel like it, I can always take another class at the studio. It's completely up to me. Also, I can meditate at home. This is something I really thought I couldn't do, but I can. I don't need a class to do this.
Finally, if I want to go to the Celebration I can go. I paid my money. I attended the classes. I went to some yoga classes. I PARTICIPATED. It is up to me. I don't have to feel ashamed in ANY way. So, that's where I am on the 40 days of yoga. I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself.
Thank you to all who commented on yesterday's post. It is constantly amazing that people will take time out of their busy days to read my blog and even more amazing, to me, they will take EXTRA time to comment. You guys don't even know me. It's such a good thing for me to see my thoughts outside my head on the computer screen. I see them and think, Huh? What are you thinking? Why are you being so tough on yourself? Or, why are you letting yourself off the hook? Shape up. Work harder. Get over it. Move on. See, these are the things I say to myself after I hit the Publish Post button. I really try not to think about you readers out there, too much. I don't want to edit myself into someone I'm not because I don't want to embarrass myself in front of people I don't really know and will never meet. (Love ya, but really, we don't know each other.) Anyway, there it is. Some days I'm a ROCK STAR and some days I'm NOT. Some days I check EVERYTHING off my to-do list and some days, not so much. Either way. I'm OK. And, I'm doing the best I can.
For your viewing pleasure, I've included Rachel Dratch from SNL doing her thing.
