Week 4 of the 40 day yoga thing. What was I thinking?

I probably don't sound all that enthusiastic, do I?  This yoga thing is ridiculously difficult.  I had no idea what I was signing up to do.  Really.  No freaking idea.  Had I known what I know now, ...  I just can't say.  Let me start with this item of news.  I got sick this week.  I had a bad cold and a fever.  I felt terrible.  And I thank God I got sick.  Week 4 would have killed me otherwise.  Here's the thing.  In week 4 you do a three day fruit "feast."  FEAST?, umm, well, ok.  Well, you get to eat a lot of fruit.  I don't know about other people, but I do not find fruit a satisfying meal.  I like to have some fruit with my meal.  I like to have fruit and cheese as a desert or even a light lunch.  But, fruit with fruit and then a little more fruit is not my cup of tea.  Oh yeah, they don't want me to have my coffee, either.  So, all fruit, no coffee.  See why the bad cold is looking so good.  And, I'm at work.  Eating fruit makes you have to use the bathroom a lot.  Anyway, my co-workers think I've become a coke addict.  They have no idea why I won't eat food and I'm in the bathroom all the time.  Great, my reputation is smudged.  (Not really, but it's funny to blame stuff on yoga.  They're all spiritual and such.)  Ok, enough on the eating. 

The second leg to this project is the meditation.  I'm really better at this than I thought I'd be.  My problem is I forget to do it.  I can turn this sucker around on a dime.  I just put a reminder in my cool iPhone and it will remind me to do my meditation.  Which, I believe in week 4 is up to a half an hour in the morning and a half an hour in the afternoon.  Gee, I guess I might not be as good at this as I thought.

Thirdly, the yoga.  I suck.  That's it.  Period.  Thank goodness I was sick.  I don't think I would have the energy with the fruit thing and the yoga.  So, being sick is my excuse to not practice yoga.  And let's talk a little bit about what I call practicing yoga.  The people that are REALLY doing the 40 day thing are REALLY doing yoga.  They are doing the vinyasa flow yoga, not the "struggle to get into a pose" yoga I practice.  The yoga they are doing is SERIOUSLY cardio.  I know I've told you I sweat like crazy in my "practice."  So, you know there is NO WAY I can dream of keeping up with that program.  Thank goodness for cold and flu season. 

But, I'm not going to quit.  Even though EVERYTHING in my being tells me to eat a sandwich and I'm only on day two of the three day fruit fun.  But, I'm not going to do that.  I'm going to eat fruit.  Tonight I will meditate for longer than I do anything, even stuff I like doing.  And, tonight I will attend the class that usually includes exercises I find VERY DIFFICULT to participate in, but I WILL PARTICIPATE. 

I wonder if any of the others in the class are having a hard time with this class?  Everyone seems so enthusiastic on Wednesday evenings.  Maybe all the fruit will be the tipping point.  We will see.  Thanks for letting me share.  It helps.  I'm supposed to be journaling, but...  Oh well, I'm eating the fruit.